Running for my lif, or something along those lines =)

If you haven't seen my note/notes on facebook you can click on them here https://www.facebook.com/kym.izawsome?sk=notes

I ran suffered tortured my first half marathon on the bike.It took me 1.5 hrs to complete and I was sore. I am still sore actually. haha.But it was for a really good cause & I got a really nice tech shirt from it. I got a nice medal too.

Spiffy-Spiffy medal. WHAT!

I have another 5k tonite and I know if I do not get my butt in gear I will never walk/run it. I work tonight and have a TON of stuff to do. I have been procrastinating way to much haha. I am doing the mothers day virtual run tonight,

Here's the linky doo if you want to do it!

What Being a Nurse for 6 months has taught me ( actually it's 9 months. but I figured since It was supposed to be 6 months....)

Hey my loves! What  a year this 2012 has been! I for one can say it has been so blessed <3 12="12" a="a" here="here" in="in" is="is" months.="months." my="my" nbsp="nbsp" of="of" p="p" quick="quick" recap="recap" year="year">
January- PASSED NCLEXX OMGEREGERDERSDFERESRED~
February- Began jobhunting and writing KIZAWESOME,LPN ( and reading every medical journal I could)
March- FINALLY GOT AN INTERVIEWS ! One of these interviews would lead to a job! =) ALSO made my first state roadtrip by myself with friends. it was pretty exciting =)
April- On orientation for a complete month. Learn how to work all 3 shifts- find that I ABSOLUTELY HATE 2 shifts and only truly love one shift ( aka Nights.)
May- Start going back to college!
June- Mah Birthday!
July- Travel to Pa & to the beach with grammy, it was fun! =)
August- Attend employee banquet thing and win a door prize!
September- Go to Lburg and see into the woods with Niki =)
Octobre= halloween and after halloween shopping with friends!
 Novembre- work on thanksgiving- but get a killer paycheck ( also become "officially" part-time.even though I work full time hours....whatevs.)
Decembre- BESTIE TRIP 2012 to DISNEY!! LOVED IT! Met the cake boss, reconnected with old friends...it's been a beautiful year. =)


What being a nurse has taught me in 6 months

• I have had to stay over to work once and it was when I was only off of orientation a week. NURSES EAT THIER YOUNG, SPIT THEM OUT AND THEN STOMP ON THE REMAINS!. Harsh I know. But ugh the morning I had. Here it is : I worked from 5 pm-10:15 pm that night at michaels. I had also worked at the nursing home AND michaels the day/night before. I was running on 4 hrs of sleep . I did not know half of the residents, how they like their medicine etc. I had one resident who had LAWYERS coming ( and that lady also precided to fall. TWICE.) I had a #$@#$@# replacement nurse come at 11 am HOWEVER was nowhere to be found in the building until 12:45 pm. At that rate I should have just stayed. I was tired, overwhelmed, told the other day shift nurse to leave me the @#$@#$#@$ alone after bugging me over and over if I gave so and so med or so and so med. I had an IV to do that I couldn't get to stop staying occlusion. I couldn't figure out the drug dosage right and whne I asked for help the day shift nurse said : are you sure ? like 10 times. I said yes I think, I am not sure. so when we put it in the IV pump they distributed the med in half the time it was supposed to be and I had to do a med error report. I wrote to my DON and told them about the other nurse and they simply stated : it was your resident, not theirs. UGH. I also tried to call my DON and tell her I had to be at my other job  at 4 and explained how I had 4 hours sleep etc etc and she simply stated :" If you leave it will be resident abandoment and you will lose your license." Anyway I was ready to quit I absolutely HATED my job and everything involved with it, and then I decided I better wait until I have 6 months in. My replacement nurse was a total jerk. She wanted me to get lal these treatments and crap done when HELLO she is the official TREATMENT NURSE! I hate small towns and I hate small town drama, that is even at a nursing home. That is why I work at night. No one sees me, I don't see them and I enjoy all my co-workers. 
• Nursing can bring on depression. I don't know why but some nights when I go into work it is a GREAT chore to motivate myself to go. Some days I feel like all I am is popping pills and writing in charts. Sometimes I have 15 freaking skilled notes to write. And other times I enjoy what I do in my life. 
• Being in a Long Term Care setting has allowed me to learn multiple things 1) I am a CHARGE NURSE and that will look good on resumes 2) I am a treatment, wound,medication,floor,emergency,dietitian and intervention nurse. 3) I am a Peg tube BOSS. No one primes the tubing like me and I rarely have an issue with my PEGS. 4) Sometimes a resident will have a bad dream, all they want is for you to talk to them to tell them it will all be ok. 5) You will make mistatkes and get overwhelmed. But that is ok you are only human.
• Whoever says they have never made a medication error LIES. You will make a med error, but you will also live through it ( and deal with the reprocussions whatever they may be. For moi it was a write-up and having to read a handout ( over giving out TYLENOL. pssh whatever.) 
• The most humbling experiances I have had involved no more than 5 minutes of my life. I shall share the top 3 ) One resident had a bad dream and was SCREAMING out loud, she wrote a note for the CNA to give to me it said : " I would like to see my nurse, I have had a bad dream, I am very frightended." I went into her room and just talked to her for 15 minutes, she was then ok. I gave her a hug and went on with the rest of my night. The second time was when I had a residnet who I give 0600 morning meds to wake up and give me a hug saying how much she missed me while I was on vacation- the amazing thing is she has alzheimers but she remembered I went to Florida and that I was gone for 2 weeks ( it was really only one, but thats pretty good.) I could go on and on about my residents. Like last night my resident was scared and wanted to be with me, she hugged me and was crying because she was scared- and all she wanted was to be near me. She stayed with me at the nurses station until 0200 when she finally decided it was sleepy time. =) My last instance is when I had a resident who was in the hospital for 2 weeks. I have to check his heart rate every shift and what not and when I was assisting him with some meds and breathing treatments and things he caught me off guard ( and my eyes were watering from the MASSIVE amounts of flowers in his room.) He thought I was crying for him and thne he started crying saying : you can tell that you have alot of experiance as a nurse because you still have the heart of compassion, not like these young ones now adays. Oh if he  only knew I haven't even been a nurse for a year yet....
• I have learned that nurisng is really hard, and that when things happen it gets even harder. I have also learned that I enjoy what I do and cannot wait to see where I end up next. Would love to move to Florida. For real. <3 br="br">

A letter to my former self ( Nursing Student)

Hey there Kym! Hope life is serving you well! I am writing to you on the upside of Nursing School ( Smile that means you made it!) It was SO tough, but you buggered through it! You work at the local nursing home ( I know, hard to beleive, but its not to bad.) Let me tell you being a nurse is....ok. Its not what you expected but then agian it might be because you are in LTC and your heart isn't really there. But that's ok too! Here is my advice to you ( or others who may be reading this) on how to survive nursing school.

First off Look at this bloggy thing. It's hilarious and you can relate to more than you think! =)

 http://whatshouldwecallnursingschool.tumblr.com/page/11

          You are working 2 jobs ( 1 full time, 1 part-time) and going to school fulltime, you sleep in your car between jobs and you see Mom and Pete once every 2 weeks, when you actually do make it home. You barely squeak by your first semester but you make it!

         Second Semester is the hardest for you. Pappy's health is rapidly declining and you go visit 2-3 times that summer to Pennsylvania.That last time you visit give him the biggest, tightest hug and kiss you can ever imagine, listen to him read you the bible, give him the card and go down to the giftshop where you will get a penn state pin and pillowcases from the hospital. Give him the biggest hug you can imagine. that will be the last time you see him , alive anyway. You are struggling SO hard with school. You are still working 2 jobs but only for the beginning of Summer. Catherine's lets you go, without letting you know ( apparently she did that to 1/2 the people that worked there, never got their last day memo either.) You barely squeak by in Pharmacology, but you make it. Med-Surge however you do not pass, you miss it by 2 points. After the Summer Semester ends ( Mid-September) You face MAJOR depression. You failed out of school, Pappy is declining and in and out of the Hospital, you are now completely jobless, your relationship is horrible ( turns out later he was just a jerk all along ;) and you just suck into this depression vortex. I would tell you things get better, but it is not for a little while

   October 24th 2010 at 0500 am Sunday Morning, you get a phone call. Or rather the house gets a call on the house phone. Pappy has passed away without warning ( even though his health was declining, it was still a surprise, due to the fact that he was supposed to come home that Monday) This sends you into an even deeper depression, but thankfully it only lasts for a little while. That was the hardest goodbye you ever had to say. To this day it still makes you cry. In fact, writing this post about it makes you cry. Funny how the mind and feelings work like that. That October you and your 3 best buds have a mystery halloween party on halloween. I will never forget that and I will never forget how they cheered me up, just days after Pappy's passing. I also remember James being really nice and supportive during that time. He was ok sometimes. While you are up there you get 2 job interviews, one at Michael's and one at Kohls. You get the job at Michael's and your boss is so super duper nice and the best boss ever. Then he retired, but he totally deserved it.

   Fast forward to March. Your grammy winn starves herself and is a failure to thrive and passes away. You are sad, but it doesn't really effect you to much. IT sounds mean and pitiful I guess, but the truth is its hard to miss someone who disowned you and was hateful to you the last time you talked. You forgive her now, but its hard to forget those things. You do have a pretty good time with your Dad in PA those 3 days, he seems pretty stable and normal. That's good.

    In April you re-apply to the LPN program in Farmville. You wait and wait and wait and wait, your friends all get back in but you don't get a letter stating you get back in. That is until 1 week before class starts. You will THRIVE this time. You end up with a 86 in Med-Surge and do well , you are very confident and so different from last year, you instructors can see it too. You learned that the proper success is to STUDY super hard , have a good study group ( <3 a="a" amp="amp" autumn="autumn" boo.="boo." close="close" friends=")</p" group="group" have="have" holly="holly" is="is" it="it" of="of" outside="outside" resources="resources" thing="thing" to="to" too="too" use="use" wonderful="wonderful">

  You Pass to Third Semester, by this point you are just ready to graduate and have a countdown to the day ! ( actually you have had a countdown since second semester) Clinicals are no longer Scary. Just kidding. Clinicals are always scary , but you survive! When you get into the 'real" world, you learn procedures are not really as scary as they seem in clinicals. Like now you are a peg tube BOSS! =) You have survived LPN school, ending up with a B and an A in your last 2 courses. Graduation was so super special. Grammy came down, and you started crying during graduation because of what you wore under your collar and the message you wrote . Mom and Pete took pics and taped the whole thing =) You have watched it 3 times now. It's beautfiul life.

   For the NLEX, you take a break during Christmas, but you study study study study. When you are not working at Micahels you study. You use Kaplan over and over and over, find other trainers buy 3 different books. You study like a Boss ( It is well worth it!)

   The Morning of NCLEX you pray , and then you talk to Pappy for a little bit ( and cry a teeny bit too.) You make Your Peppermint Mocha Coffee, leave the house at 0700 for the test at 1030/1130. You eat something, but I don't remember what. The whole way driving there you just are relaxed, calm praying, singing, doing lab values. The last thing you do is read your bible verses, say another prayer, take a deep breath and go inside the building. The only thing I will say about the NCLEX is MAN it was HARD! Your test shuts off at 85 questions and you freak out a little bit. You took it on a Friday and you have to wait until LATE monday night to find your name on the phone registry thing ( incidentally you are with your Bestie and squeal like a little girl over and over) You do not fully believe you pass until you get the paper copy in the mail, which you immediately frame. Also the NCLEX people are SCARY! You feel like you are getting ready to go to prison with all the pictures and scanning and whatnot that they do. They scanned my hand, my ENTIRE hand.

  What is the moral to this letter Kym? Besides telling you your story there are some morals right? Of course silly.

     1 ) Yes, Nursing school is ridiculously hard- but you DO make it through and learn that sometimes you wish you would be back there ( not for the studying part, but for the "fun" parts)

 2)  study study study study study study study study study study (have I mentioned study)

3) ALWAYS do your patient research for clinicals AS SOON as you get home ( then you can go to bed by 9pm and wake up bright and cheery! also make sure you know ever miniscule detail, look up labs, procedures , tube feedings etc. ( you were terrified of PEG tubes and trachs.) (you still hate dealing with trachs.)

4) Keep pushing through, you will be ok!

5) You and James breakup mutaully- you talk every now and then, it seems to work out best that you don't date

6) It's ok to be scared. I think it is a natural reaction to the situation, everyone is scared, we probably look like a little herd of deer.

7) It's ok to ask questions ( but you usually and rarely will.)

8)Stop beating yourself up for every mistake- you aren't perfect, no one is ( you will continue to beat yourself up throughout the duration of school and your job)

9) Find a group of students that you get along with, nobody else will understand what you are going through, the long hours, the frusterations, but they will. Find them, cherish them and keep in touch with them . =)

10) Find an outlet to handle your frusterations & take a day off ( or a night off, whichever you can afford) Find something that relaxes you and makes you happy.

    Know that when all is said and done you will by K.Izawesome LPN and life will be peachy keen forever ever after ( HAHA who are we kidding! =) ) Stay tuned to my next post on being a New Nurse 6 months =)

<3 always="always" p="p">

adorable table runner!















These Smelled AMAZING! they were the first thing I noticed ( without realizing it = )



These awesome candles ! They smell amazing on my studying table ( where I spend 95 % of my life =)





the yummy hot coco i use on clinical mornings



The cute little card she sent!






Hello Loves! I am excited for 2 reasons: I have exactly 60 days left of nursing school and that means I only have 16 classes and clinicals left give or take a few =0) I will Finally graduate on December 19th YaY! =) Anywho I signed up for a fall friendship swap at I got stephanie as my partner which was reallly fun! Where I live is where she grew up, and where I went to college I think her brother or sister went to as well. Anyway I got this lovely box from stephanie and the first thing I noticed about it was that it smelled AMAZING! Everything inside of it was amazing as well =) The only thing I didn't manage to take a picture of was the pumpkin scones- I managed to finish them off before taking pictures ( you know I am a sucker for pumpkin stuff ) I'm still not used to this blogging thing ( you would think after a year I would be haha. ) Stephanie sent me some awesome body spray ( which is now in my clinical bag) these adorable little apple satchets ( they smell amazing and are so cute! they are hanging on my christmas tree ( which I leave up all year, cuz I'm cool like that = ) some amazing vanilla carmel, hot coco ( all which are amazing for clinicals thanks! and this adorable little card she wrote in as well! I had a fun time doing it and hope to do it again next year as well! =) Welll time for me to go study. As soon as nursing school is over I plan on redoing this blog, so that it looks somewhat orgainized =)

Sorry I have been MIA Loves!

Whew what a busy semester this has been! Nursing school is ( almost) over =) I am SO looking forward to it. I am 1 skit and 1 final away from this semester ending, thank goodness! I am looking forward to my 2 week summer break =) I JUST signed up for this awesome fall swap, and I already have started shopping/making stuff for my partners box! =) I am excited! If you would like to do the swap just go to the link below

http://kristinsveranda.com/vignettes/fall-friendship-swap

Well back to stuyding!!! =) Happy Fall!!!!

Nursing Nerd Writes again

Ok so I was just looking up stuffs online and found thses funny nursing phrases - plan on using them in my nursing bag stuffers haha =)

Student Nurse: I gave up my life, so I could learn how to save yours

Cardiac Nurse- Your heart is our Soul concern

Endoscopy nurse- No butts, no glory

Geriatric Nurse- it never gets old

GI Nurse- Up Yours!

Home Health Nurse- No I don't do windows

Hospice Nurse- A Last(ing) Friend

ICU Nurse- When it's life or death ICU

IV Nurse- We know how to Stick it to you

L&D Nurse- you labor we deliver!

Massage Therapist- when you need me I knead you


NICU NURSE... Great things really do come in small packages

NEURO NURSE... We use our brains to fix yours.

NIGHT SHIFT NURSE... I work best in the dark.

Nurse Educator... Teaching The ABCs

OB NURSE... Take the epidural & thank me later.

OR NURSE... We have they best patients (they're asleep)


PEDIATRIC NURSE... 1/3 mom, 1/3 nurse, 1/3 best friend.

PEDIATRIC NURSE... I love to kid around.

PICU NURSE... Peek-a-boo ICU!

PSYCH NURSE... I think my patients are contagious.

RADIOLOGY NURSE... Lie and I'll see right thru you!

SCHOOL NURSES ROCK... Just not on school nights.

SCRUB NURSE/TECH... Table for one?
UROLOGY/RENAL NURSE... Ur-ine good hands.


Love love love those

I plan on making little goody bags at the end of the semester for everyone- just some candy and a pen. nothing super fantastic. BUT I do plan on doing somehting uberfantastic for the graduation. Mwuahahahahha =)

Life- or somehting along those lines

So my life went from this >.< to this =) all because of God. He has truly blessed me with an opportunity of nursing school this summer- is it going to be hard ? Ridcoulusly, am I going to be stressed ? Absolutely. But I learned SO much from my experieance last year, like right now I should be studying, but I am on here. But I have a time frame and I am ok with styaing in this little time fram bubble. I am making Corn Salsa and cookies for tomorrows cookout with my small group =) So I have to find time to update my blog. I know no one reads this, but that's ok too =)

I wanted to tell youabout an amazing site I found for studying its called flashcardexchange.com
It is a life saver!

also studyblue.com- just use your facebook login =) and its portable too!

I hope you have a great memorial day. For me memorial day is not only a day to rememver and honor our troops ( speacial shout-out thanks to my Pappy ( Rest in peace) Uncle & Great Uncles for serving Air Force, Army, Navy and Marines. My Biological person who helped to create me. and all of my friends, husbands and wives overseas- thank you SO much for serving and putting YOUR life on the life. That is a great sacrifice.

I am learning to not get overwhelemed/anxious with nursing school. Am I worried I could fail, am I going to fail this test etc etc, by me worrying it is like saying to God- You aren't as big as my nusring school and cannot help me defeat it. I've been playing this song for a while and it pretains to SO many things in my life right now. I hope you too can learn to find chaotic peace like I am slowly doing.

"Be strong in the Lord & never give up hope, you're going to do great things I already know that God's got his hand on you so DON"T LIVE LIFE IN FEAR, forgive and forget but don't forget why you're here, take your time and pray...these are the words I would say."

until next time Loves!

Extreme Couponing and Dr Visits Hoorray!

Ok so my last post was, well very negative - Sad. This one is Happy! I was visiting Grammy this weekend in Pa and was watching tv when this show called EXTREME Couponers came on. LOVED IT! These people got TONs of items for free or for ridiculously low prices. So I googled some sites and found these AWESOME deals and things- I definatly plan on using them tomorow =) Here are the sites I used

http://www.thedealscoop.com/2008/11/blog-post_4796.html
www.coupons.com
http://coupons.redplum.com/offers/default.aspx?Id=LogicalMediaCD6491b&DefaultZipCode=
http://www.southernsavers.com/2011/05/harris-teeter-triples-deals-518-523-list-1/


amazing!

and whne I went to dr i lost 20 pounds annnd mmay be able to get off my medicines soon , YaY! =)

Nursing School Starts tomorrow ( BLeck- Yay!) Then work and returns and stuffs of that nature. Well time to get off here!

Wow it's been a LONG time!

So I just realized it has been an insanely long time since I last blogged. Partly because 1) noone really gives a crap what I write ( hence the MASSES of followers I don't have haha) and because I was working 2 jobs and venturing into things. I have an etsy shop now ( It's not selling anything. bummer) I have a job which is awesome =) I tried a yardsale ( which failed along with everything elese in my life and I have youtube acccount ( don't rush to look theres nothing up there yet.) Anyway I am still waiting to get back into nursing school- My gram died on March 4th so I lost 2 grandparents in my 23rd year of life. sad. well, enjoy your day lovlies!

HaHa a good laugh

My friend had posted on her facebook the following status:
Reposted from a friend - 1.) Go to Google Maps. 2.) Click on "Get Directions." 3.) Enter Taiwan as the start location. 4.) Enter China as the end location. 5.) Read step 24 of the directions. 6.) If you laugh, re-post!

being the inquisitive being I am, I decided to indeed google Taiwan to China.I spared you the entirety of the 75 directions. I only included 5 =)

This is the result I got :

Taiwan

1. Head west on 人倫林道支線 toward 人倫林道
200 m
20. Slight right toward Exit 五股一交流道(八里)
1.0 km
21. Take the ramp onto 台64線
10.1 km
22. Turn right at 領港大道
1.3 km
23. Turn left
1.1 km
24. Swim across the Pacific Ocean
165 km

Haha really? =) What are the craziest directions you ever recieved ?

WHAT a turnaround!

So a few weeks ago I was sitting around here all mopey because 1) just lost my pappy and 2) didnt have a job.
WELL here's a super quick update to bring you up to speed on moi's life

I have not 1 but 2( count em 2) JOBS!!! One is at my favorite craft store ( I can't say the name but its AWESOME) the other is a nursing home night shift every OTHER weekend- suweet ness :)

I know now for Thanksgiving I am grateful for good food, great friends and an AMAZING GOD!!

What are you thankful for this Thanksgiving?

Ok, I LOVE them!

So for my new job I had to purchase all black tennis shoes. No biggie I knew EXACTLY what I wanted. Nike Shox. I love Shox, because they take the weight of my weight off of my ankels ( which are weak. especially the left one since I broke it twice) Pap introduced me to shox years ago and ever since I have been hooked! Sadly barely anyone but Dicks place carries them anymore. Mom and I headed to Dicks Sporting Goods- saw a super cute grey, hot pink and black pair and 1 solid black pair. I have wide feet so its a little hearder for me to find things. Anyway I try on the last pair they had and to my dismay it didn't fit. So now I am in a dilemma- I need a comfortable yet supportive pair of shoes for work ( which requires lifting and unpacking boxes- exciting I know.) So we ended up going to Kohls because I had to get my Kahki pants and I found this AMAZING shoes that I always made fun of. They are sketchers shape ups FX . A little on the pricey side ( 99.00) But I had a 15% off plus they were one sale. They are DEFINATLY worth the inverstment- They make your calves BURN, help you lose weight and help with your posture. and they are so comfortable! I was able to do Tucks and Herkes for the first time since High School! They feel like you are running on sand, by walking. It is AWESOME!

What is your favorite pair of shoes & why? :)

What are you thankful for?

I decided to go ahead and make 30 days of thankfulness and post it.

Nov 1st- I was thankful to be in Lynchburg with amazing friends who helped take my mind off the stresses of life
Nov 2nd- I'm thankful that I have a faimly that I can talk to
Nov 3rd- I am thankful for a car that works
Nov 4th- I am thankful for a job interview that may potentially lead to employment ( fingers crossed)
Nov 5th- I am thankful for Mom and Pete celebrating 11 years of marriage ( you guys are awesome and I <3 you)
Nov 6th- I am thankful for small children who think I'm awesome
Nov 7th- I am thankful for Pappy spending 23 years on this earth with me, when it could have been shortened many, many , many times. I am thankful he is spending his first birthday in heaven with no pain. I miss you now; I always will. I love you Pap. Love always, Kimi.
Nov 8th- I am thankful for fall leaves and a job fair in Henrico
Nov 9th- I am thankful for pumpkins and pumpkin flavored everything!
Nov 10th- I am thankful for Niki-aka the best doggie ever :)
Nov 11th- I am thankful for a house to live in, thats pretty awesome
Nov 12th- I am thankful for changing my major and possibly getting my Bachelor's :)
Nov 13th- I am thankful for the year this has been, even if its been crazy
Nov 14th- I am thankful for Kettle Corn
Nov 15th- I am thankful for a pappy who taught and showed me how to love the lord. I truly hope one day I can be like him. So solid in his faith. Never faultering. Gosh he was amazing, I never really appreciated it before. I guess that age old saying is true, you never know what you have until it's gone. I'd give ANYTHING to give him a hug one more time. anything.
Nov 16th- I am thankful that I got to see my father alone for the first time in 11 years- amazing
Nov 17th- I am thankful for taking classes next semester- who knew I would actually miss going to class
nov 18th- I am thankful for Hulu.com
Nov 19th- I am thankful for Starbucks; Chinese food. Oh and Blogs!
Nov 20th- I am thankful for my mom. She's been my best friend and believer when no one else believe in me.
Nov 21- I am thankful for the Christmas season
Nov 22- I am thankful for Deer, the deliciousness they provide. Like Jerky :)
Nov 23- I am thankful for my life, good and bad
Nov 24- I am thankful for gingerbread lattes. mmmmm.
Nov 25th- I am thankful for the internet
Nov 26th- I am thankful for my friends- and lynchburg
Nov 27- I am thankful for roadtrips with said friends
Nov 28- I am thankful for dreams and the roadblocks that sometimes interfere with those dreams
Nov 29- I am thankful for seafood- seriously yummy and seriously healthy too!
Nov 30- I am thankful for hope, because sometimes thats the only thing you have to get you from one day to the next.

What are you Thankful for?

If you are having troubles, Depression ANYTHING read this post =)

I don't know if I have mentioned it before but I am a Christian. And that may turn people away from my blog. I'm sorry if it does. Anyway I found these fantastic words in the Message ( Thanks Uncle G!) I read them and was encouraged, I hope they encourage you too. I've been struggling with depression, anxiety and just grief from losing my Pappy as well as school and job search ( which is depressing really, especially when you have interviews and no hires :( ) Enjoy Loves! This passage is from the book of 2 Timothy..I'm not sure what verse because the message doesn't write numbers for some reason... Oh well. :) I actually just took bits and peices( I think thats ok. ... and it made sense to me ( but read the whole passage its good!) This is the entire Book of Second Timothy

If we die with him, we'll live with him; If we stick it out with him, we'll rule with him; If we turn our backs on him, he'll turn his back on us; If we give up on him, he does not give up— for there's no way he can be false to himself.

Don't be nieve. There are difficult times ahead.

2 Timothy Chapter 3 ( not sure what verses, because the message doesn't label the verses)

And you also well know that God rescued me! Anyone who wants to live all out for Christ is in for a lot of trouble; there's no getting around it. Unscrupulous con men will continue to exploit the faith. They're as deceived as the people they lead astray. As long as they are out there, things can only get worse. Every part of Scripture is God-breathed and useful one way or another—showing us truth, exposing our rebellion, correcting our mistakes, training us to live God's way. Through the Word we are put together and shaped up for the tasks God has for us.

22God be with you. Grace be with you.

Ok so it is random. Sorry :(

Here are some of my Favorite proverbs.. They helped and still help me through hard times. I hope they help you to. Pappy would tell me alot of proverbs. but I can't exactly call up to heaven and ask him anything so here's my attempt at Sharing the word. :)

Proverbs 29 :

3 If you love wisdom, you'll delight your parents, but you'll destroy their trust if you run with whores.

7 The good-hearted understand what it's like to be poor; the hardhearted haven't the faintest idea.

21 If you let people treat you like a doormat, you'll be quite forgotten in the end.

Proverbs 28

9 God has no use for the prayers of the people who won't listen to him.

10 Lead good people down a wrong path and you'll come to a bad end; do good and you'll be rewarded for it.

Okay, thats enough for today. It has no real pattern, and it's probably a stupid idea. Pappy would now how to write this. Have I mentioned I really really miss my grandfather ? :(

The last one really convicted me because I have led many good people to do ungood things. God knows what I'm talking about, and I bet those people know what I'm talking about too. Love you all. God Bless and I love you all ( and so does Jesus ! )

Pumpkin Carving 101 =)

This past halloween I carved 2 Pumpkins! :) Here is a simple how to from me to you!

Step 1 ) Buy awesome pumpkin ( this year I am into the white pumpkins, idk why)

Step 2 ) Pick a pattern or freestyle. ( For the Jack pumpkin I freestyled, It was pretty easy I just traced 2 big circles for his eyes, then 2 tiny little circles for his nose. I used the typical pumpkin toothy smile for his smile, added a few extra stitches and voila! I had Jack Skellington :)

Step 3) Before Carving Cut top of pumpkin out and scoop out the seeds, reserve seeds if planning to make roasted pumpkin seeds with sweet and salty crunc ( which you can find on my Recipe Blog)

Put tealight candle in pumpkin after carving. Light up and VOILA! you're done! C'est magnifique! :-)

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My Pappy, My Hero

For those of you who know me, you will know that I was extremly close to my Pappy. Pappy recently passed and entered into heaven . I'm still trying to get to grips with it. My life moves fast, and slow all at once. He was a great Crhistian man, the best one I ever knew :) I included his obituary and a picture. No amount of words I write could EVER do the justice of what he was. He was a devout Christrian, retired pastor, great pappy and loved my grammy SO much. I miss him , but I know he has no more pain, no more worries, and he finally is at home in the heaven he long for. I only hope that as I continue in my life, I can achieve completeness in Jesus, just as he had- and join him :) I know this post is long, but that's ok. Pappy Deserved it :)

Behind my smile there's many a tear, for one we loved and lost so dear, an empty place that cant be filled, i miss you know and always will. When none of it made any sense and just as I was about to lose Faith, GOD whispered in my ear "Heaven needed a hero" RIP Pappy, I miss you

:( 11/7/25-10/24/2010. Heaven Got the best angel that day ♥

Reverend William Allam Stephens (November 7, 1925 - October 24, 2010)

Reverend William Allam Stephens, age 84, of Holly Hall Apartments, Middletown, formerly of Allentown, entered his eternal rest to live forever with his Lord and Savior Jesus Christ on Sunday, October 24, 2010 in the M. S. Hershey Medical Center. He was the husband of Elizabeth June (Remaly) Stephens. They celebrated their 66th wedding anniversary in July. Born on November 7, 1925, he was a son of the late James E. and Florence (Allam) Stephens. William graduated from Allentown High School, Eastern Pilgrim College of Allentown and the E.C. School of Theology at Myerstown. He worked as a carpenter for many years including 12 years at Bethlehem Steel, prior to entering the ministry in 1958. He was a decorated veteran of World War II, serving with the 65th Infantry in Europe and later with the Army Security Agency during the Korean War. He received the Bronze Star for action on the Siegfried Line. He served Jesus Christ for 32 years as a full-time Pastor at Elverson, Steelstown, Manheim, Allentown and Conestoga Evangelical Congregational churches until his retirement in 1989. Survivors: Wife; Son: Glenn W. Stephens and his wife Darlene (SteffY) Stephens of Hummelstown; Daughter: Nora K. (Stephens) Pike and her husband Lester Pike of Amelia, VA; 5 grandchildren: Danielle, Christine, Gerry, Jennifer and Kimberly; 4 great grandchildren: Mikayla, Joseph, Austin and Addison; Brother: Luther G. Stephens and his wife Jeanne (Peters) Stephens of Allentown. Services: 11:00 am Thursday, October 28, 2010 at Stephens Funeral Home, Inc., 1335-37 Linden St., Allentown. Friends and relatives may call 10:00 – 11:00 am Thursday in the funeral home. There will be no graveside services. Please share on-line condolences at www.stephensfuneral.com. Contributions: In lieu of flowers, contributions may be made to Stoneridge Retirement Living, 440 East Lincoln Avenue, Myerstown, PA 17067.

My New Blogs!

Hey Loves! I created Seperate Blogs for My Crafts & Recipes =) They are under constructions....but please check them out! :) Follow Them!

http://kitkatsbites.blogspot.com// <--- my recipe blog

http://kitkatsnknickknacks.blogspot.com/ <--- My crafts blog

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Halloween ( belated but worth it!)

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So this year for Halloween I was a fortune teller 1 for 1 party and then an emo kid for another. I loved being an emo kid :)

I don't think I have ever been so excited for Halloween before. Probably because I'm going to an amazing weekend in Lynchburg again. =) I wanted to post my pictures of my halloween pumpkins, but my camera battery is dead and I can't find my charger. GRR. SO here are some perty pictures of pumpkins and things that I love =) Enjoy!

Check out my craft Blog, I've been on a Hiatus for a while- with pappy's passing and all, so I haven't been able to blog. At All. Tragic I know, like people read my little blog. Ah well.

What video game have you played the most?

oooohh thats a tough one....at the moment Nightmare before Christmas Oogies Revenge- I just cant seem to beat the dang game.

Ask me anything

Time for Reality

Hey Loves! So I was thinking the other day ( ok maybe like 8 hours ago, tops) of how I view myself. I am " clinically Obese" according to Doctors ( By the way, Drs don't always know best.) Anywho I was watching a Shane Dawson video, because face it, he's hilarious ( most of the time anyway.) And then I just visited James this past weekend - I'm so proud of him he lost 65 lbs in idk 7 months ? But he's also a man, so he has an advantage. Anyway I was thinking today is the tomorrow I want to live. So I decided to open up my blog and invite my readers to go on my journey with me. It's not just a fad this time- It's my life. So far I lost 10 lbs. not to bad, but not fantastic either. I will post a new weight thing every month, all haters, don't even bother to write.

I was trying to make this go into my journey page....but I couldn't figure out how to do it.

This is actually an old drafted post, so my journey to date so far is 17.8 lbs according to my electric scale. :)

When I lose an actual boathload of weight I will post my weight. :)